So as many of you know and others probably suspect, I am a control freak. I HATE not being in control. I don't like the unexpected and I don't like change. Considering all this... motherhood is right difficult for me sometimes. There are lots of things about children that you can't control and I hate that.
But my worst nightmare...when my children get sick. I HATE it when my children get sick and I can't magically make them feel better. When the illness takes over, I am no longer in control. I can't fix it and I hate it.
Right now both boys are sick. They are running high fevers (102 for N and 103 for J). N is very congested, but seems to feel okay. He's still running around and getting in trouble although he cries a lot more easily when you tell him no--which is how I know he doesn't feel well. J is lethargic. He's barely eating. I have to force him to drink juice. He just wants me to be with him all the time. He feels awful and there is nothing I can do to stop it. This control freak is freaking out because my boys feel like crap and I can't make it any better. I hate it!
Okay, enough complaining. Off to clean my house while the boys are napping because my parents are coming in 3 days! I just hope the boys are better in time to enjoy their Mooma and Papa.