Sunday, September 27, 2009

A Control Freak's Worst Nightmare

So as many of you know and others probably suspect, I am a control freak. I HATE not being in control. I don't like the unexpected and I don't like change. Considering all this... motherhood is right difficult for me sometimes. There are lots of things about children that you can't control and I hate that.

But my worst nightmare...when my children get sick. I HATE it when my children get sick and I can't magically make them feel better. When the illness takes over, I am no longer in control. I can't fix it and I hate it.

Right now both boys are sick. They are running high fevers (102 for N and 103 for J). N is very congested, but seems to feel okay. He's still running around and getting in trouble although he cries a lot more easily when you tell him no--which is how I know he doesn't feel well. J is lethargic. He's barely eating. I have to force him to drink juice. He just wants me to be with him all the time. He feels awful and there is nothing I can do to stop it. This control freak is freaking out because my boys feel like crap and I can't make it any better. I hate it!

Okay, enough complaining. Off to clean my house while the boys are napping because my parents are coming in 3 days! I just hope the boys are better in time to enjoy their Mooma and Papa.


Yarnhog said...

That is one of the hardest things about being a parent, watching your kids suffer and being unable to do much about it. As they get older, you'll have to watch them struggle with emotions, academics, disappointments, and all manner of things they really just have to work out for themselves. All you can ever do is be there for them. I hope they feel better soon!

Nicole B. said...

what a bummer! sounds like you guys were bound to get it, since everybody seemed to be getting sick around you. yes, hope they are feeling better and at least in 3 days you will have your parents there to make you feel better, if nothing else :)