It's been a month since Zoe's surgery. She's starting to act weird again. She goes outside and lies down and refuses to come inside when I call her. It's how she acted right before she had her surgery (she had two baseball sized splenic masses--both cancerous tumors). I know the mean life span after surgery for this kind of cancer is only two months, but I'm not ready. She's been doing so great up until this. She doesn't seem to be in pain, but she's not acting like herself. I'm trying to not freak out, but I'm not doing very well. She's my first baby and I'm not ready. I'm NOT ready.