Friday, February 27, 2009

Zoe's Acting Weird Again and I'm Freaking Out

It's been a month since Zoe's surgery. She's starting to act weird again. She goes outside and lies down and refuses to come inside when I call her. It's how she acted right before she had her surgery (she had two baseball sized splenic masses--both cancerous tumors). I know the mean life span after surgery for this kind of cancer is only two months, but I'm not ready. She's been doing so great up until this. She doesn't seem to be in pain, but she's not acting like herself. I'm trying to not freak out, but I'm not doing very well. She's my first baby and I'm not ready. I'm NOT ready.

5 comments:

BettencourtFamily said...

Oh Haley, I am so sorry to read this. I know how much our "first babies" mean to us...I don't blame you for not being ready. I just hope she isn't in pain. Keep your chin up!

Jadielady said...

*hugs* I'm so sorry, I know I'll be a wreck when its time to say good bye to my babies. Hopefully she can have some more time with you

sophanne said...

my heart is with you. Breathe deeply and know all will be well.

Nicole B. said...

i was going to ask about her. man, that is hard. she's lucky to have such a wonderful family! give her a hug and get some hugs from the boys.

Yarnhog said...

I'm so sorry, Haley. I felt the same way about my Molly; like I was being dragged toward something and it was too soon. Just love her and pet her as much as you can and remember that she's had a wonderful life and been a loving friend for many years.